Spring's a Comin'

It is always refreshing to feel the warmer air as the spring season creeps in. I love hearing the birds singing in the mornings as the sun lights up the blinds in our bedroom. I love looking out the kitchen window and seeing the robins hopping around in the field behind our apartment. Being able to go out without a coat on for the first time in months is always such a treat. Josiah has decided he quite likes standing on chairs and looking out the windows at the birds, people, and cars that come and go from our apartment view. I love to watch him do it. It brings me joy to see him appreciate the simple view the Lord has given us for this time. In a strange way I enjoy his tantrums when I try to bring him inside after being out playing. He gives me a little extra inspiration to go outside and just breath the fresh, warm air.
Joe and I have put the offer back on the 5 acre property that we originally offered on. It had fallen through for a bit and gone off of the market because of a dispute between the bank and an investor. We didn't put the offer in right away after it came back on the market, but we decided that we would put the same offer in and if we are accepted, then God gave us favor.
Through all of the home searching, money conserving, and wisdom seeking I am feeling very aware of my need to know God's heart for our decisions. There is always talk in the Christian community of the "end times" and what that may bring to us. After much heart searching, I decided that it shouldn't affect my life and what decisions we make. If we are leading our lives according to what we are convicted is the will of God, then He will care for any hardships ahead. It is too easy, for me as an individual, to slip into a state of fear. The what if's taunt me to a point of almost depression. Not only what if's of a spiritual future, but of simply a normal life, commonly pondered future. What if our home loses value, what if Joe loses his job, what if this isn't where we want to be for the next 20 years. Every person, no matter their beliefs, wonders about these things. Especially now.
Right now I have peace to enjoy the new season and exciting prospect of having a home. If we don't get it, I have peace that we are where we are meant to be right now. Every day is meant to be enjoyed, no matter how small the blessings to be had. I have a beautiful son, and loving husband and a great God. Thank you Lord for all the wonders my eyes are blessed to see, big and small.